Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Menjengkelkan.....

Sedang bermeditasi menenangkan fikiran..... kerana ada perkara yang terlalu menjengkelkan!
Tahu apa maksud 'menjengkelkan'? Kalau dalam bahasa Inggeris ianya bermaksud 'annoying'.... faham? Mungkin kerana pengaruh filem dan sinetron dari seberang, maka perkataan 'menjengkelkan' sudah kerap didengar dan ada pula yang mengguna-pakai. Apa yang menjengkelkan aku kali ini? Kadang-kala perkara kecil, samada perbuatan atau percakapan mahupun penulisan akan membuatkan kita berasa tidak selesa dan jengkel. Minggu lepas ada seorang teman rapat mengutus email, antara kandungan email tersebut "....I'm not sure.. and I hate to ask.. but I have to ask... tell me the truth - if you and N*****l are merely friends.... and nothing more and sexually between the two of you..." Aku tersentap banget!!!!! Salah satu perkara yang membuatkan aku begitu sensitif ialah apabila menjadi 'tertuduh' atas kesalahan yang tidak pernah terlintas hendak dilakukan. Sampai hati teman ni menuduh aku sebegitu rupa..... jelas perkataan 'sexually' tu.... terlampau! Maaf? ya aku maafkanlah dia yang menuduh membuta tuli tanpa usul periksa, dia guna perasaan dan tidak menggunakan akal fikiran. Aku maafkan dia.... tetapi bawalah maaf itu bersama memori........

Selepas meditasi..... sambung Yoga pula...... buang aura negatif.... buang jauh-jauh....

8 comments:

-kEn- said...

how does on earth he knows about u?

Rush Murad said...

well ken.... first of all i have no 'sexually affair' or whatsoever with my good friend in Miri... and I've explained this few times to my fellow friend (accuser?), and i even introduced them physically.... and this fellow friend (accuser?) keep telling me that my good friend 'have interest' on me...as he was saying.."tengok muka dia dah tau... mata dia semacam jer tengok u..."

DBI said...

suka sangat kirai kain orang kan...???jelas sekali kawan baik tu belum kenal dengan kawan dia...
btw.menjengkelkan tu dlm loghat ganu= nyekkit

Pato & Pearl said...

nak jugak bermeditasi kat Angkor...err then again..at 40 degrees temperature...hehehe think NOT!!..

Picture yang first one very nice..

P&P

bambang66sg said...

Rush,
I guess this is a personal matter between you and your "good friend". Don't make use of this blog for personal bashing.. It should be privately discuss in your personal email.

Anyway, if you are in the right position, why you bother so much. but don't put the other party in a difficult position too.

My 2-cents worth,
Bambang.

Anonymous said...

RM, Sorry to intefere in this matter. I don't know whether I'm welcome to post any comments on your blog, but as a friend to your friend (accuser) I believe I have to say something which I think its totally different from what you've said. I'm not taking side of anybody eventhough (dia) is my close friend but I believe I have to put my personal comments here. As far as I know, (dia) has gone through so many SHITS in life, (Dia) has been cheated, being hurt or even taking for granted by (dia) past lover because (dia) is too nice & sincere when it comes to a relationship. Give everything but end up get nothing in return.

I know (dia) loves u very much cuz (dia) alwz talk about you. (Dia) told me nice things about you and I can see from (dia) eyes that whenever (dia) talk about you the eyes shows everything and how much (dia) loves u. And when you send (dia) cake, card n flowers, (dia) is so happy and kept the flower till now eventhough its already died. Come to think about this, I think (dia) loves you so damn much. I dun think so (dia) accused you but (dia) juz wanna be assured about the whole situation. So please dun get it wrong. I write this not cuz of (dia) but cuz of you both and to see (dia) happy is very important to me. I will cry for (dia) and when (dia) hurts I will feel the same way. U dunno what (dia) has gone through now.. Do you know that (dia) is sick at home? (Dia) is on MC for a week? Sufferred from depression (from work and might be because of this too). Do you know that (dia) will be going for brain CT Scan at SJMC next week? Do u know how I know about this? Its because I'm the one who help him preparing documentation for him to go the hospital (SJMC). I think you dunno cuz you alwz think that (dia) fine and can take care of (dia)self right? RM, if I write something wrong here, dun blame dia) cuz (dia) dunno that I leave my comments here. No offence ya... I juz hope you will not abandon (dia) or leave (dia) cuz of this. I juz dun wanna see (dia )collaps again. Enuff for what (dia) has sufferred b4.

I know you love (dia) too but may be you juz dun realize it cuz you have so many "options" at the moment. (Dia) is too sweet and nice person you know... you will never find other lover like (dia). I hope you will take this as a learning process for both of you in order to get to know each other better. Your journey with (dia) still new.. give sometimes to know each other and stop blaming each other too. Do you know whenever we go out for lunch (dia) alwz look at your picture? So sweet right?

RM, as a sister, I dun wanna see (dia)cry and depressed again juz like when you were silent before.. Kesian dia... Dia tak pernah CURANG dlam bercinta..

I just want to see both of you happy till the end of time and I know you can make (dia) happy.

Take care ya..

- Princess Munie, Kuala Lumpur -

'toBy' said...

Ahhhhh

drama!!!

been der done that!!!

hehehheheheheh....

what u need to do...

is RETAIL THERAPY...great FOOD....and PRAY to GOD!!!!

a bit cliche...but hey...works for me,darl....

hehehheheh hope u can survive the AGONY!

LOL!

and how are u btw? hehehhehe

nanieyghanie said...

'dia' is him?